Johnsons' Journey

I can’t believe that I haven’t written much since September… I guess I was just too disappointed that I wasn’t pregnant. I don’t know… I wish I would have been better about keeping track of the adoption.

We made it through the 8 week course, and you should have seen the questionnaire we had to fill out. It was 21 pages long! Joe and I wrote down our answers on paper, and then I took the time to type them all up on mom’s old manual typewriter. That took a long time, as my typing skills are not good.

Our classes were done in November, and though we got an adoption agent right away, it took a long time to work on the home-study. We had to get physicals done in March, and we were fingerprinted too. We’ve each had to meet with the adoption agent by ourselves, and we’ve met with her together. I’ve also got the album done… You have to make a photo album of your yourself, the house, any pets you have, your extended family. ect. When they match you with a child, they give them the album to have during the “get to know each other” part, before they actually come to live with you… As of today, our home-study is just about complete… I had a meeting with our agent today, but I told her we were going to post-pone the adoption….

Because I’m PREGNANT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

At either the end of December, or the beginning of January (I can’t remember) I bought a book called “Your Fertility Signals” and I figured out how to tell if I’m ovulating or not. In February I was sure I was ovulating, but I was sick too, so we didn’t “do” anything… Sure enough, two weeks later my cycle started, just like the book had said. I was pretty excited…

Then in March, shock of all shocks, I ovulated again. This time we had had a very sunny day, the first one of the season, and I had to be out in it. So I went and weeded the front garden, sitting on the damp ground to do so. That did a number on the arthritis in my hips. They hurt so bad I could barely walk, much less “do” anything about the fact that I was ovulating… Sure enough, two weeks later my cycle started…

I was determined that I wasn’t going to miss my next chance. In April I ovulated again… This is a major shock, that I actually ovulated 3 months in a row. I’ve not done that since before we were married! It was Friday, April 25th and when I was at work, I could tell I was ovulating. We hadn’t done anything for like 3 days, so as soon as Joe and I were both home, I said, “I’m ovulating!” and dragged him off to the bedroom… He wasn’t complaining.

So, we did what we had to do, and then got up and showered. We were off to see Joe’s family. We were meeting at Tebo’s, and then going to Joe’s parent’s house afterward, so the guys could watch a Blazer game… Since we were a little early, we went to Value Village (which is almost across the street from Tebo’s) and I found a few cute baby clothes.

That night I was reading Joe’s Mom’s medical book thing, and I read that when trying to get pregnant, after you “do it” you should lie in bed for at least 30 minutes, to let the “little swimmers” reach their destination. We hadn’t done that, so I was pretty upset, thinking I had messed things up.

The following Monday while at work, my chest started hurting… My hopes raised a little. Then, a week or so later I was lying on the bed reading a book during the afternoon, and I fell asleep. I couldn’t believe it! I never nap during the day… My hopes raised a little more… My cycle should have come on May 9th, but (obviously) it didn’t, so my hopes raised even further.

Since I have had so many negative pregnancy tests, I wanted to wait until I was one week late before taking the pregnancy test… That was this morning… I woke up at 5:30, and knowing that today was “test day” I just couldn’t sleep another wink. I got up and snuck off to the bathroom.

It's positive!!!!

Have you got any idea what a wonderful feeling it is to finally get a positive pregnancy test after almost 3 years of trying? I was walking on air. I went back to the bedroom, where Joe was still asleep. I said, “Joe, you’re going to be a Daddy.”… That woke him up in a hurry!!! He’s so happy! And I’m so happy that he’s so happy!

Even though it was before 6 a.m., I just had to call Mom. (She didn’t mind though.) When I told her I took a pregnancy test she said, “And it came out positive?!” She’s so happy for us!!!!

It was hard concentrating on books this morning at work. I start at 7 a.m., and I couldn’t wait for it to be 9 a.m. so I could call Dr. Prescott’s office. (I had brought their number with me)… I was also bad and made a long distance call to Rudy and Crystal in California. They were so happy for me, and extra excited because they are pregnant too. Crystal is about 2 months ahead of me… Anyway, I called Dr. Prescott’s office as soon as it was 9 a.m…. My appointment isn’t until June 4th. How can I wait that long?!?!

I’ve told a lot of people already. When we call the first thing they say is, “Have you got news on the adoption?” and we say, “No, we’re pregnant!”… This SHOCKS everyone! The affect is so much fun!… Personally, I couldn’t wait to tell Teressa’… She always acts like she’s better than me, because she had kids and I didn’t… I never gave up hope that someday this would happen, but she would say things like, “If it hasn’t happened by now, it’s not going to.”… I think she was glad that I wasn’t getting pregnant. She is jealous of the great relationship I have with Joe, and of our house too. Children is the only thing that she had that I didn’t, and she liked it that way. So, I called her and she said, “Oh… I didn’t think that would ever happen.” in a rather disappointed voice. Isn’t that funny! She was the only person who wasn’t excited over our news, and it doesn’t surprise me at all.

I can’t wait to get going on the nursery. On January 10th we started a major remodel of the second bedroom. We completely stripped the walls, and had an electrician remove the old fuse boxes (three of them) and put in one circuit breaker box. Then we put in insulation… Before we put up the sheetrock we framed in the closet, and the toy shelves area. After the sheetrock was up, but before we mudded, we added the toy shelves and the bookshelves. The room is just about done, and I can’t wait to decorate it with all the baby stuff I have been buying over the last 3 years!

Our adoption agent was disappointed that we wouldn’t be adopting a child, but she was happy for us. I had actually told her that we wanted to post pone it, but she just stopped the whole thing. She said it would be too hard to have an infant and a special needs child at the same time… And while I am so happy, and so excited about the baby, I feel guilty too.

To the best of my figuring my due date should be around January 18th. How can I ever wait that long? It’s NEXT YEAR! I’m going to have a hard enough time waiting for my first appointment…. I’m so impatient.